Preggers is getting stressers

I'm sweating this pregnancy a little bit. Not because our lives as we know it are about to change. Nope. I'm not so much worried about that, because I welcome the challenge and know I can handle it. I'm sweating the business. Yep. I've become that crazy work-a-holic who takes her laptop to the hospital with her, not because she wants to upload pics to share but because she wants to get orders out.

Now, I don't really foresee this happening. My husband will be there, after all, and would never allow this. However, I am sweating this "maternity leave" stuff. With my first child, I couldn't wait to get the heck out of the office when I worked my corporate job. With my second, I literally worked my last day when I conceived him. This is a different situation for me. I LOVE what I'm doing. I am finally at the place where things are taking off for me business-wise and I have to stop. I keep asking myself "How long do I really have to be off? I wonder when I will get to sneak off to the computer and get stuff done". When I have these thoughts, I immediately wonder how I got this crazy. I mean, this is my newborn I am negotiating time with as well as my beautiful, sweet toddlers. I guess I am having trouble with letting go for a bit from the independent part of me that I thought was gone the minute I decided to be a stay-at-home mom.

I've tried to find local help, but the great candidates who would be a good fit don't have hours that would be cohesive to sharing some of my work load. So here I am, with these crazy worries and feeling really stupid because I am concerned about this stuff at all. What I should really be focusing on is when this amazing little person is coming and how I can't wait to have that time.

So I digress and feel silly for sharing this at all.